Compassion or pity……

Song: Help by Erica Campbell ft. Lecrae

Is there a difference? Do they look different? Honestly, I don’t know.
Lately I’ve been feeling like an exposed cavity nerve. Ever felt that? Hurts like….the dickens. Pray for me, I’m still a reforming sailor.
So, I managed to get December surgery free just to start again on January 2. Yay😒 While I still have a bunch of appointments every week ( completely over all of it), I’ve noticed I’m in a looping circle. I need to walk around, but I hurt everywhere and my push through is at a bare minimum. Translation: I’m getting fat..ter and getting less motivated to care. The sprouting of hips has me excited cause I’ve never really had any, but the matching belly makes me want to reach for a pint of sherbet. So as I struggle physically, there are nice people who offer to help and of course I smile and say I’ve got it when my prayer two seconds ago was God help.
I picked up this quote in my devotions this week, “Don’t deny someone of a blessing by doing everything on your own. In what areas do you need help? God created us to need each other, so don’t be afraid to both ask and receive help from others”. Wow.
As close as I am to my family, I even struggle with getting help from them. Of course I had to go digging to figure out what’s really the matter. It ain’t pretty… I’ve made some erroneous associations by observation and they became part of my view of the world.
Just a hint, it comes back to trust, surprised, yeah, me neither. So I operate thinking if I don’t lean on or need someone else then they won’t pity me and once the help has been given they won’t abandon me. Yes, that’s a mouthful, and I’ll have to expose that root another time. I figure as long as I can do it myself then people will like and stay with me because they can just be.
My devotions this week were full of passages telling me that Jesus healed and performed miracles because He was moved with compassion for the people.
I don’t want to block someone’s blessing because I can’t recognize the God in them.