This past year has been about learning how to trust for me. Learning to trust God, some other folks, but mostly myself. It wasn’t easy and frankly it still isn’t. Each situation requires a deep breath and a decision on how I’m going to handle what’s in front of me. I’m still breathing deeply over some of them, although I don’t know if it’s a trust or attitude issue. I’m a year and a half from my kidney transplant and almost a year from my last surgery. Yay! I’m learning a new normal of how to live well and I’m scared. I never thought this season would arrive in my life where I’m on the other side and now that it’s here I’m nervous. Being well brought some friends with it that I haven’t seen in close to a decade; hopes and dreams. Some dreams are new and they make me itch, I don’t think Benadryl can touch those, but I have one dream whose ember never truly died. Now the flames are roaring back to life and I have a decision to make. Am I going to step out on faith or am I going to let fear of what could happen again hold me hostage?
I’m glad the Bible has people we can relate to and their examples are often the little nudge we need to scoot ahead. John 5:7-9 shows Jesus interrupting a mans’ life. Glory to God!! The man had been an invalid his entire life but he knew that just being by the pool of Bethesda might give him new life, but he couldn’t get in. Jesus showed up and asked the man if he wanted to be made well. I’d like to point out that most preachers would whoop and holler about the man giving Jesus an excuse of why he couldn’t get well by getting in the pool. My view as a person who has battled sickness, what the man offered was not an excuse, it was insight into his psychological state. His statement shows how much hope he’d loss, the self condemnation he held and the resignation he allowed himself to settle into to avoid emotions that were essentially self destructive. I believe Jesus saw and knew all of this; so He gave him an instruction, “Rise, take up your bed and walk”. What a pivotal moment in this mans’ life!! One rife with fear and hope, excitement and wonder, hesitancy and boldness. That’s where I am, right now in my life and like that man, I’m choosing to take up my past and strut into my future.
What decision will you make when your interruption knocks? Answer the door!! A new season awaits you!
I was tired of living my life so lost. So I came here, and
it changed my whole outlook on life! I love myself more,
I’m more energetic and positive. It’s not all about me anymore.
The groups are a learning experience with counselor’s who
know what they are talking about because they’ve been thru it
already. I owe it a lot to them, because of them I get to keep my family!