Song: Comfort Me by John P. Kee and New Life Community Choir
It’s November and I’m looking at 4 almost 5 months post transplant.
November is going to bring cooler weather, my sister’s Mac and Cheese and another major surgery. Yay😒
I’m re-entering that place where tired, exhausted and fatigued just doesn’t adequately cover how I feel. I’ve just been diagnosed with Sleep Apnea and may I say I am completely over all of this.
Now for the turn around…..
This latest diagnosis may help with areas I simply couldn’t understand; like why I wake up more tired than I went to bed. Why I’m sleepy and irritable and gaining weight as I nibble on anything and everything to get through my tasks for the day…so yeah, I’ll take it.
Finding out about another reason for them to play “how many punctures does it take to give Robin an IV” is Not my favorite game, but to know that they’re going past all my levels of skin and blubber to fix something else, well , this is a clean post, so I will leave the beep beeps in my head.
So, how do I keep pushing through? Glad you asked 😀
One of my favorite podcast pastors said something that shocks me every time I use it in my life; you cannot disappoint God. Wow, right? Disappointments come when what you were expecting doesn’t happen. This is where you take a minute and figure out what you really believe. Either God is almighty and all knowing or we’ve picked the wrong belief system. Since I do believe that He is, then…those times when I allow my circumstances to flood my senses, I’m not disappointing God, He’s just marking down how many more incidents I have to go through before I’m solidly unmovable.
Since I believe God is all knowing, then that means He is already at the end of this situation. Which means I have to get there too…meaning, I trust that God went before me (Deu 31:8),
He knows the plans He made for me to get there (Jer 29:11) and If I trust Him, He will guide me through this (Proverbs 3:5-6).
If you haven’t noticed, that’s a whole lot of trusting for somebody with trust issues. But this is what keeps me on this side of crazy and absolute despair.
Leaving you with a quote:💖
Our greatest enemy is not disease, but despair.