Frozen……..

Song: Let It Go by Pentatonix

🎼Let it go, Let it go!!!🎼
Have you ever been frozen by common sense? Or, since society is decaying, relatively easily accessible truths?
I had surgery on the 2nd, did my loopy dance with understanding and anesthesia and came to with a ladder of staples on my belly. Got to finally meet the acclaimed pain button, but had to reject that friendship because the two of us needed a third person in Benadryl, and the hospital wasn’t providing it fast enough. I am allergic to most good things: pain killers, antibiotics, yummy foods, etc.
So my pain tolerance is back at astronomical and I’m getting ready for that great discharge day….Saturday….Today. But I get the feeling it ain’t gonna happen. The doctors are weirdly fixated on the restroom, my sugar is bouncing around like it’s been injected with super expresso and I feel a tantrum building up from the depths of my soul……..
The window in my room looks across to what seems to be a hallway. I imagine the people I’m seeing hurriedly escaping to the elevator before they get mandated for overtime and I also imagine God asking them to hold the door please.
(I’m a reader and I’ve always had an overactive imagination).
As I press my faithful football pillow into my belly as I snicker and hoot at myself, I freeze at the thought train I was riding on. I was really feeling like if things didn’t go as planned, then I was on my own. I imagine God waving His conductor baton as things swirl and fall into place and then bringing everything to a screeching halt when a wrong note gets hit. (Looney Tunes)
I realize I do this a lot; this humanizing God to the point of removing His Deity.
So I pipe myself down and change my view of this hiccup. Don’t know what the hold up is, but my continuing acquaintance with this Chinese Chicken Salad makes me smile.