God!
I see you, I feel you, I see your handiwork, but.
The atmosphere is shifting, change is coming, something is approaching, but.
I’ve done all I knew to do, taken all the steps, remembered all the scriptures, but.
My focus strays to the right and I notice all that I had hoped to have accomplished and then I start to feel anxious and panicked about how far I’ve gotten from my timeline. It appears all my plans and preparation was for nothing. How’d I get here?
My attention roams to the left and I remember all that I’ve been through and I’m grateful and equally crushed by the fear that perhaps those problems will come again. How do I know I’ve learned the lessons from that cycle of issues? What if I missed one? Oh God!
I refocus on what’s in front of me, close my eyes and take that first tentative step forward. I can hear you God and as long as I stay tuned to your voice I’ll keep stepping forward. My anxiety melts away as I remind myself that you know where I’m going. Worry flees from my presence as I recall the accomplishments of Biblical Characters as they pressed through this first stage of faith.
Papa, grant me patience as I eagerly await what I’ve been preparing for; Your Will.
Amen 💖